Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Realizations

I dislike when realizations start to consume my whole being - you know, the ones that there is something you want and you know that you need to make a major change to achieve it? When they are consuming my whole being (meaning my thoughts, actions, dreams, everyday life), I know it's opportunity knocking, or at least tapping my shoulder to remind me that I am not where I want to be in life. A multitude of things are on my mind, many of which are things I want - NOT materialistic things - mostly career and being "happy and complete" in my life kind of things. This doesn't mean I am not happy, because I am. But it can be so much more. I strive for more "More", ya know?

I read a friend's blog a while back ago, a guy who I use to work with in New Mexico - a pretty grounded person, with dreams of becoming a teacher, he traveled to different parts of the US to do student teaching + more education, to ultimately hate the thought of becoming a teacher and then he moved from New Mexico to Chicago, got a a job (not as a teacher), only to come to a realization that he reconciled with himself and for the very thought that "teaching" was knocking on his door. Scott, I wish you the best in your endeavors and I always wanted you to know that I thought you'd make one of the BEST teachers EVER!

I need some reconciliation. I know I need change, I know I WANT and WILL EMBRACE change. It's just getting there... that's the hard part.

3 comments:

~*AMY*~ said...

oh change...i use to HATE change, seriously, would do everything i could to avoid it...then a huge change happened in my life that i had no control over and i realized change is good and i embraced it.

you have to do what you need to do to make YOU happy girl...and know i love ya princess

Anna-Marie Still said...

Hey girl -
Wow it's been along time since I've had a chance to check in with you - life's been crazy since we moved.

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now - you are in my thoughts & I'd love to get together and scrap!

I'm having a fun art journal giveaway on my blog this week - stop by and join the fun!

The Parsons Family said...

I had to do that huge "change my ideas thing" when I found out I was preggas......! Wish you all the luck my dear in finding what your heart desires!!!