Thursday, July 29, 2010
I love to think about the future, A LOT! The problem is, I sometimes am a dreamer and not a doer! I have grand intentions, I don't always follow through with them. (Is this a Gemini trait? DEFINITELY!)
I've always been like that, really. Maybe I don't try, because I fear failure? If I don't have a plan in place from beginning to end, with all the details spelled out, it's likely I won't try.
I purchased this book last year and it's been sitting on my bookshelf since then, staring me in the face saying "START ME!"
I always have long term excuses as to why I don't do things, too. I've been wanting to get back into playing piano, I found an instructor, but with the wedding, I've put it off until January.
I finished school to be a paralegal, I spent a long time looking for a job; didn't get one and settled back into another manager job in human services, until after the wedding. I convince myself that I have to fulfill my verbal 1 year commitment to the position - if you've worked in human services, especially with people who live in a residential setting, stability is positive for these people. Now that I committed to a year (at least) I feel obligated to stay. Not sure that I will though. I have to shake off the feeling that "I'm obligated", however I'm really not.
The wedding has value, this is why I haven't made any big changes until at least after. If you've planned a DIY wedding, you'll understand the massive amounts of time this consumes.
I am a pretty good photographer,though I have much room for improvement. I paid for an online SLR class 2 years ago, and I still haven't watched the videos! Thankfully I have access to the class forever!
There are many more things that I would like to do; start a savings, get a better paying and meaningful job, buy a house, find time to be more creative, write a book, open a little shop and sell fun little things (mini books, journals, photos, etc.)...and so much more.
What are your intentions?